222 — Maturity and Resilience (Shine Anyway. Now you can.)

My journey went from complete freedom to full-on dependency on those that are saturated in the trauma I healed. In truth; I have not been well, or fully myself; since I ended my van-life experience and came to Florida, where I do not have the option of living with space from the very people that want me to forget. Much like everything else; this is by design.

The option to hide away; in the comfort and space of our cocoons is over.

If you have not gotten that memo; I am here to personally deliver it to you. We have emerged! Now we must pollinate and move about the areas that have been so incredibly dangerous for us when we did not yet have our wings.

Angel number 222 speaks of the resilience and spiritual maturity needed to hold both polarities.

To live in spaces where distortion and heaviness exist, but still; holding our truths. This is what we have been building ourselves to do, and the foundation for all that we wish to bring forward.

For a time; we needed the walls and the space to know ourselves and unwind from the inheritance of karma, and ascend from it. We needed to know what our song was, away from the noise. That time was a time of sorting and it will come many times in our lives but right now is not that time.

We all inherit our unique karmic distortions to work through, and every bloodline has its knots to untangle.

All contribute to the detangling of the web of life — but what does this mean for us now?

The collective disease of separation and the festering wounds it causes have come to their peak; making us punching bags. It will not be enough anymore to placate these energies. That was how we survived it then, but now we have what we need to thrive. The people in our lives resist us, or make us wrong for the space we hold for ourselves; they are at their worst and living the impulse that desires only to see the sages of this era in chains and enslaved. The anti-christ stream.

They will not be pacified when we make ourselves small, or even forget ourselves to live in harmony with them. It was enough for them before but not anymore. They want to punish us. Hurt people hurt people right? As we are all being called home — know that their resistance becomes ammunition to shoot the messengers. This is why I say; placating is not an option anymore…

I don’t believe we are even meant to reason or try to be messengers of healing and realization. It is not for us to change them. That never worked, but we will not hide from them either.

We will not pretend to be something less threatening. We will hold ourselves in the truth we have earned even when what they hold is a far cry from what we do. We will live by example — hearts open. We will live in our heaven on earth, even besides those who dance in the flames of their personal hellscapes.

Can you shine in the darkest places? Can you let go of the need to prove or improve yourself? Can you hold love despite what is not love? We are not against them but that is where they want us. We have no skin in that game and we do not belong on the battlefield with them. Can we live beside them and show ourselves that we are stronger than the monsters that terrorized us then? That we are stronger than the monsters that try to hinder us now? Through them? Through our own egos? They didn’t extinguish the light of truth — they convinced us to do it ourselves. Can we choose not to now? Even when they are foaming at the mouth?

Remember the times when we swung from the polarities? Experiencing moments of spiritual contentment and liberation, then moments of complete darkness, heaviness, and pain?

We’ve been closing the gap between the two for some time. We are being invited to live with them both. They are consistent and complement each other more than we know. The white horse and the black stallion both; carrying our chariots forward into the new.

We were made to remind ourselves and them, only by living our authentic spark of God, but we still try to reason with the captives that even hold themselves hostage…

Their egos will not receive us and they constantly plot ways to slip us up. They do this by fogging up our inner world and calling back the one that lived under the oppression. Can anyone say Stockholm syndrome?

Many of us are still reeling and lost in the perceptions of those that don’t have the sight to lead. Their lives may seem like they have something you don’t but they have contorted themselves and found function in dysfunction. We are not designed the same and do not have that option — and thank God for that. We are designed to seek, and ascend.

Function in dysfunction is not in our nature. For them? Their labels are only as good as the boxes they live in.

If you are lost, and struggling to hold your truth at this time-this is a friendly reminder to re-orient yourself. They behave badly because their wounds are festering and they cannot find comfort in the places they refuse to leave. Go forth anyway; unshakable and sharp. Bask in the resilience you have acquired on your journey.

Exercise/Example:

When you shower, you set the intention to clean your body, yes? Try holding that intention and changing the temperature from something comfortable to as cold as possible. Try and hold strong in your intention to clean your body — even when the water makes you want to forget your intention and seek comfort. Challenge yourself to endure discomfort and invite your resilient nature forward.